#sorry yhis is sooo long

[gentlemenprefergirlbloggers]

I'm so overwhelmingly depressed lately. My anxiety is my main trait at this point, and it's making it almost impossible to maintain anything. It's two weeks into school and I already feel overwhelmed and stressed. I had a ton of plans and things to look forward to (my first tattoo, valentines and galentines, a new photoshoot i directed, etc.) but I can't bring myself to be excited for any of it. I simultaneously feel like I must plan things, so I have stuff to look forward to and remind myself that life is worth living, while also feeling like there is no way I can do any of it. I feel overwhelmed by things I planned. I can't quit college. I want to get my degree, and to me that is a non-negotiable. But other things, like plans with friends/photos/etc. are entirely my fault. I have no one to blame but myself, and I'm trying so hard to not cancel events this year and to generally be better. But it's so hard. I just want to cry all the time but I can't even bring myself to do that.

I'm so just so afraid. I feel too scared to leave my house. I'm so afraid for my dog, who is sitting next to me, healthy. But she will just eat anything and I've had to take her to the emergency vet 3x in the past 6 months and that's unattainable for me. I've cleaned my whole house so she can't get into anything but I can't convince myself that she'll be okay, because if she needs to go to the emergency vet again, I'm worried I won't be able to pay for it, even with pet insurance. It's so much stress.

I'm afraid of the future. I'm afraid of the current political situation. I'm afraid that I'm wasting my time (but then I think about Vienna by Billy Joel, but that comfort only lasts a minute.) I love my boyfriend but I'm worried that we'll never be married or that we're not the right fit even though it feel so right most of the time. But people will be married for 30 years and still get divorced because they weren't right. Do I really want that possiblity? But I also don't want to be single and 30 (nothing wrong with that, but it's my standard.)

Just so overwhelming. Everything.

[chris-phd]

To everyone that @ in tag games 🙏

I want to thank you from alllll my heart and soul for the kindness of thinking of me and tag me 💙

I want to apologize for replying sooooo damn slow, I am 99% on my phone which is old and malfunctioning and I was surprised sometimes to see the app itself not showing I was tagged and I found it scrolling through my dash!!!!!!

I am not ignorant or rude to not reply it's just not working! I swear! Is either the app not saving all I did or it just not let me doing anything! So I need to get to the pc to reply to all of it andddd I apologize sincerely if I I don't reply to all bcs I usually save them as draft to have them there but apparently the new update fuck my drafts and not only I lost those games but also a part of my drawings I was having there:(

So again, I thank you all for the attention and thinking of me!!! I will reply to them asap! 😍💕

You are all awesomeeee and I love you all! 👏

👏👏👏👏👏👏You guys rock! 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

[ijzermansdriesen]

"May be some bugs"........ And we have Robbe's sunlit face with a smile that lights up Sander's world ... that delicate lil one chose the perfect human 🦋

I am in awe truly ! The expression you captured on Robbe's face and the tentative stance of his hand!!!

What if Sander and Robbe had been lying down among flowers in a meadow where bees and birds abound ...and Robbe had just sat up as Sander lay fiddling with his camera. The butterfly comes wafted on a breeze planting itself on Robbe's forehead where his soft curls form a shade , and Sander doesn't lose one moment in freezing the breathtaking moment forever .

do you still want prompts?

maybe some cute bugs? 🐞🐝

Yes thank you very much! This was very helpful with my art block. Thank you again! Sorry if it isn't what you had in mind though. Orz The prompt was vague and my brain pop out with this. >_<

( I will be posting a photo post after this one because my theme hates non-photo posts for images sometimes. )

[scarlett-vixen]

HI SORRY i got distracted because thinking about beel got me thinking about food, which got me thinking about dessert so long story short i spent the last hour or so making cinnamon rolls LOLOL.

sooo this is random but i feel like beel doesn’t really care about neurodivergence. he’s just like: “oh yeah that’s my big brother mammon. he’s loud and fidgety and he gets distracted a lot. isn’t he great? :)”

“….what’s an eighty HD?”

i also feel like the three realms are pretty different in terms of social norms, diversity etc. since there are all different kinds of demons who act in unique ways i think the devildom would be a lot more accommodating in terms of physical and mental needs. that said, RAD can get pretty overstimulating, even if you do have a gentle giant with you.

back to Beel. his jacket is THE place to be when you’re overstimulated. it’s nice and big, so he can pick you up, zip the jacket and then boom! you’re in a quiet dark place while also being close to your favorite demon in the world!!! the softness and warmth too? UGH, god tier. our boy is strong af and loves holding his human, so it’s a win for everyone involved. youmight accidentally fall asleep in there tho. not that he’d mind.

one of the main reasons i hc beel as autistic is his monotone voice and his lack of expressiveness. it’s stated in canon a bunch of times that he looks grumpy but really isn’t, and members of Autism Squad usually have trouble with that kind of thing.

me🤝beel

“of course im happy, why do you ask. 😐”

YHIS IS SO LONG SORRY i have more i want to say but in conclusion AUTISM -🍔

The amount of times I checked to see if you sent a new ask alsjakaja I was excited okay!

YES!!! Very much!! Oof I completely agree with the jacket situation because there’s times where I get so overstimulated it reaches the point of my fight or flight activating and I’m like “hey bud if I don’t leave this area immediately I’m gonna get violent and that’s not what I want” so having him to hide in would be so comforting 😭 the ultimate weighted blanket but this one is portable lmao

OH LORD MAMMON AND HIS POOR BLESSED DISTRACTED SELF that’s an entire different post but ugh, my boy is definitely adhd and can’t not sit still or focus when he’s excited. Relatable. ANYWAY BEEL MY BELOVED!!

Yes yes!! The expression thing is such a good point! I feel like when he’s alone with you and super happy he might be more expressive, little smiles when you look at him, soft humming, forehead kisses 🥺 but when he’s out in public with his brothers he’s normally very stoic even though he’s so happy to be out with his family and you💖

Never apologize for talking about things that make you happy my love, I’d enjoy hearing more!